I Live Here
Rowan has been saying that he lives at the new house with such determination and joy that it fills my heart. A heart that was broken and now is rebuilt stronger and full of hope.
When I came home the first night to find him sitting at the table, devouring a plate of noodles, and smiling from ear to ear, it was too much. I shed the tears that I have held in for a year. This is the first move in the last 4 or 5 that has been at all permanent. The first move that has been into a place that we could call our own. Of course, without those other wonderful places, we couldn’t have gotten to this point. It is with great gratitude that we leave our semi-permanent and non-permanent living and move into our very own house.
There was a time when I set a goal for myself. Now, I will be the first to admit that reaching goals is not my strongest suit. I have set many goals before with very little work towards actually accomplishing them. However, this goal was different. While attending Rowan’s second birthday at my old house, I said, “Next year, I will have Rowan’s birthday party at my house.” I didn’t know what that would look like, but I knew I would get there. Now it is a reality and Rachel has been such a support and motivating source. There is something to be said about her goal oriented personality. (Or is it task oriented?)
This is the house where we can get a cat. The house with the yard for him. The house where he has his fish tank set up. The house where we will have his third birthday.
This is the house where we live.
